10/10/24: My most recent dream was really weird. I had a sex dream about Adachi from Persona 4, even though I haven't played in weeks because I didn't max out all my social links in time (stupid overconfidence...). I remember waking up and wanting to sleep again, but when I did I dreamt of my John. I dreamt that I stood him up at dinner at the Savoy, but it couldn't have been the Savoy because it was so white and crowded. I woke up feeling sick.

18/10/24: I had a really weird dream about being in school. I remember everyone was yelling at me for some reason as if something were my fault, but I don't remember what. Lately I've been sleeping in the early morning and waking up in the afternoon. It's a really bad habit and it's starting to affect my university work. I think going out and doing something in the day might help break the cycle.

20/10/24: I dreamt of my John again. Why does he keep appearing in my dreams? I'd rather die than see him again. This time he was in The Netherlands and I was aware of it, I remember thinking in the dream "what a coincidence, his work took him here", but I was still unnerved. I wasn't happy at all. When I woke up this morning I felt sick again. I hate his face. I hate him. I never want him in my dreams again. I've never dreamt of someone I hated so much and I want it to end.

25/11/24: I dreamt that my second eldest cousin lived next door and came over to complain about my mum. Apparently the council had sent a ton of letters concerning her behaviour. I can't remember but she was being a general nuisance. It has parallels to when I found letters about overdue rent/bills/council tax in the porch last summer. I don't know why my cousin was telling me this though, IRL he's not very responsible or mature. I can't remember anything else.